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khayla’s first hospital admission.

It all started two weekends ago, on a Saturday, after we came back from Melaka for a wedding. I felt that Khayla was a bit warm that evening, so I assumed she was getting a fever. Mr. Sunshine hugged her and she immediately fell asleep in his arms. When she woke up, I held her in my arms and felt that her body was getting hotter. I checked her temperature and it was 37.7 degrees Celcius. Although it wasn’t that high, she was unusually weak and pale, refused to drink milk and wasn’t playing around like her usual self. She was just clinging to me. I decided to give her a dose of Paracetamol syrup and bathe her.

When I put her into her tub, she starting shivering like nobody’s business. Lene & I actually teared up because we had never seen her like that. She didn’t stop shivering while I was dressing her up. I took a damp towel and dabbed her head and body in an effort to bring down her temperature. I tried talking to her and calling out her name, but there she was, clinging to me and staring into blank space. I knew something wasn’t right so I woke Mr. Sunshine from his nap. My exact words to him were, “Ayang, kenapa Khayla lemah semacam je ni ??.”

Suddenly, her eyeballs were rolling up, and her hands were curled up and stiff, fists clenched, and she was shaking vigorously. It took me a few seconds to register that she was having a seizure !
I PANICKED.
I passed her to Mr. Sunshine, put on my tudung and took a damp cloth with me. Lene drove (like a pro) us to the nearest medical centre, which was Gombak Medical Centre. In the car, she was still having convulsions and was not responding to anyone. Imagine the state of panic we were all in at the time !
I found a mineral water bottle and passed it to Mr. Sunshine and told him to pour the water on her (I soon learned that it wasn’t the right thing to do at the time). It was then that we heard her voice, so we knew she was awake. Her fit lasted for about 5 agonizing minutes.
At the medical centre, her temperature was 39.7 degrees, and she was shivering because the nurses stripped her to her diaper and were sponging her body. We were told to bring her to a hospital for further assessment.

We brought her to Selayang Hospital, she was groggy and unresponsive along the way. Her temperature was 39.8 degrees Celcius at the emergency department. They took her blood to determine the source of fever and to rule out meningitis. Her white blood cells were slightly elevated (usually a sign of presence of an infection) but the doctor told me she didn’t think it was meningitis or any infections of the brain. Khayla had to be admitted for monitoring purposes.

All of this happened within TWO HOURS !

Her temperature was still high throughout the first night but subsided the following Sunday morning. Alhamdulillah, she was slowly going back to being her old self that day. Alhamdulillah she did not have any subsequent fits. But since she already has history, there is a chance that it will occur again so Mr. Sunshine and I have to be really careful whenever she has a fever. Khayla was discharged on Monday. Her diagnosis was simple febrile seizure secondary to viral fever.

What are febrile seizures/fits ?

Simple febrile seizures are caused by fever in a child aged 6 months to 5 years. The single seizure is generalized and lasts less than 15 minutes. The child is otherwise neurologically healthy. Fever (and seizure) is not caused by illnesses affecting the brain.
Complex febrile seizures are usually prolonged (more than 15 minutes), or multiple seizures occur in close succession. 
Symptomatic febrile seizures occur in a child who has a preexisting neurological abnormality or acute illness.  Source.

Symptoms are uprolling of the eyeballs and/or shaking and jerking of the limbs and/or body stiffness.

From what I learned from the doctors in Selayang hospital, one-third of children who have febrile seizure will have another one, and about 50% of those will have a third. Isk isk. I also found out that parents who have had febrile seizures when they were a kid are likely to pass it on to their kids. Mr. Sunshine had three episodes of febrile seizures when he was a kid !

And now here’s the important bit, what you should do when your child has a febrile seizure ?

  1. DON’T PANIC ! These were the first words in the pamphlet I received from Selayang Hospital. Easier said than done !

  2. Quickly place him on his side, away from hard objects. Gently turn his head to one side so he won’t choke if he vomits. 

  3. Make sure he doesn’t have anything in his mouth, and don’t put anything in his mouth while the seizure lasts.

  4. Keep track of how long the seizure lasts (and try to remember !). If it goes on for longer than three minutes, bring him to the hospital.

  5. If your child has difficulty breathing, if he’s choking, or if his skin turns blue, bring him to the hospital immediately !

  6. If it was your child’s first episode – no matter how short it was – bring him to the hospital. This is to make sure he doesn’t have a serious infection or other problem that caused the fever.

  7. Don’t try to lower your child’s fever during a seizure by giving him medication, putting him in cool water, or sponging him off. Oooops.  Source

I pray that nothing like this will ever happen again, but if it does, I need to learn to stay calm !

I shall write about Khayla’s experience with the Hand, Foot and Mouth Disease (HFMD) when I have spare time.

Goodnight all.
Assalamu’alaikum. 🙂

xoxo

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from febrile fits to painful sores.

Hi all.
It has been ages, hasn’t it ?
This is just a short update to let you all know that I am preoccupied with nursing my baby back to good health after being diagnosed with (the painful) Hand, Foot and Mouth Disease over the weekend. This is just a week after she was hospitalized for two nights due to an episode of febrile fit. :””””””'(

I’ve  really got my hands full right now, poor baby has been in tremendous pain and hasn’t been eating because of the ulcers in her mouth.

Please pray for her speedy recovery.
Ameen.

Thanks all.
Bye.

xoxo

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drama mama.

I spent a few hours going through my old WordPress and Blogger blogs the other day. I had to do so because I wanted to take down all photos of myself not covering my aurah.  
What a hassle, kan ? Siapa suruh tak tutup aurat dari dulu ? Isk isk.
As I was deleting the photos, I got to read some of my old posts, and I realized I could sum up my posts with one word; DRAMA.

I cringed while reading some of my posts. The life I had before was filled with unnecessary drama and I was all over the place. I still think I am a drama queen, but the old me was THE drama queen of all drama queens !

I have to remind myself to be constantly grateful for my present AND my past.
Without what I experienced in the past, I would not be the wiser (ahem !) person I am now. My past changed me, for the better. Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah ! 🙂

Khayla has been down with fever, cough & runny nose for the past few days, which means more sleepless nights for Mummy and Ayah. This time, being sick has also affected her appetite. Poor darling. Alhamdulillah she is recovering and slowly, but I’m just wondering, is it normal for a baby to fall sick every month ? Khayla had her first fever around the same time last month. Hmm.

Oh, my baby is10 months old today ! Alhamdulillah. :))
I shall update on her 9 months milestones, soon, InshaAllah.

Khayla showing off her pearly whites. 🙂

My cold sores have cleared up, Alhamdulillah. I’ve gotta take better care of myself from now on.
 
xoxo

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cold sores galore.

I’ve been having back to back cold sore attacks since April 17. That’s more than a month now. I have no idea what keeps on triggering the attack because I am trying my best to avoid chocolates (sigh !), nuts, sun exposure, extreme cold temperature, stress (!!) etc. I have been religiously popping multivitamins, vitamin B & C tablets, and making sure I don’t skip meals.

How can I not be stressed when I have these ugly sores on my lips that people keep staring at and asking me about, and I haven’t been able to kiss my daughter for so long ! Self esteem = ZERO.

Either there’s a trigger factor that I have been missing out on, or that my immune system has gone haywire. My boss (a doctor) told me that it could be due to the fact that my body is under a lot of physical stress because I haven’t been getting enough rest/sleep, have a baby to take care of and have to travel quite a distance to work every day.

SIGH !

For those of you who don’t know what cold sores are, Google can help.

In a gist, cold sores (herpes labialis) are small, painful, fluid-filled blisters or sores that appear on the lips, mouth, or nose that are caused by the herpes simplex virus. It is transmitted through oral secretions or sores on the skin.Unlike most viral infections, this virus is not completely eliminated as they reside quietly in a dormant/latent stage in nerve sheaths until something triggers its active stage which causes blisters on the lips known as cold sores. There is no cure !
Cold sore attacks can be brought on by the following conditions:

  • General illness or changes in the immune system (from mild illnesses to serious conditions)
  • Ultraviolet radiation 
  • Fatigue
  • Physical or emotional stress
  • Immunosuppression due to AIDS or such medications as chemotherapy or steroids
  • Trauma to the affected area – my first attack this year (in February) was because Khayla bumped her head on my lips !
  • Menstruation (hormonal changes)

Cold sores are actually very common. About six in ten people in the UK carry the virus, no data for Malaysia though. However, not all of them have outbreaks. So far I have only seen one UiTM student with cold sores, and when she came to the pharmacy to get her medications, I felt like giving her a hug. Drama, much ?

Annisa and I with my cold sores on my lips. :'(

I don’t remember exactly when I had my first cold sore attack, but I know it was years ago, while I was doing my degree. My first outbreak was terrible because the doctor I went to see thought it was a bacterial infection and kept peeling my scab off, only to make it spread even worse ! After that, I have had one to three recurrences a year, but nothing like what I am experiencing now. :'(

Abu Hurairah R.A narrates Rasulullulah PBUH said,

“For every misfortune, illness, anxiety, grief, or hurt that afflicts a Muslim -even the hurt caused by the pricking of a thorn – Allah removes some of his sins.”

and

“There is no disease that Allah has created, except that He also has created its treatment.”

So many people out there are suffering from far worse, so I need to stay positive !
I can do this.

xoxo

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my breastfeeding case.

I stopped breastfeeding entirely after Khayla turned 7 months. It was one of the most difficult decisions I have ever had to make.
After months of battling with my emotions, I think I am finally comfortable with the fact that I chose to stop breastfeeding my baby, for the best of baby and I.

Reasons why I chose to do so:
1. Khayla refuses to drink my expressed breastmilk (EBM). She would only want to breastfeed directly. That made it tough for the babysitter, so I started supplementing with formula only when Khayla was at sitter’s place.
2. My milk production decreased tremendously after a bout of fever and food poisoning and no Fenugreek or power pumping could do anything to save it.
3. Khayla would get agitated every time she breastfeeds because of the little amount of milk she was receiving. She was so cranky ! Poor baby. 🙁
4. I was stressed out and exhausted 24-7. When I was breastfeeding, I was stressed because Khayla was stressed and when I wasn’t breastfeeding, I was stressed out because I was constantly thinking about my breastfeeding issues. I was always mad at myself. The exhaustion from pumping milk, work and traveling back and forth from Gombak to Shah Alam every day also had its effects on my emotional well being.

Khayla is less cranky now that she doesn’t have to work so hard to get milk when she’s hungry, she has been sleeping throughout the night ever since, and is a really active and healthy baby.

I have now realized that doing what is best for my child means understanding what is best for me too. Sometimes it’s about what I am comfortable with. If I am not happy, and stressed out all the time, how am I supposed to raise my baby to be a happy baby ? I believe in raising my child in a loving, stable environment and providing her with a good education. That’s infinitely more important than whether I choose breastmilk or formula.
In my case I can say that this decision has helped me physically and mentally.

Yes, breastmilk is the best milk, but formula isn’t that bad either.
Only Allah knows how much I miss breastfeeding, but I’ve gotta be strong because I’m a mother now. 🙂

To all mothers who feel pressured to breastfeed, or have tried to breastfeeding with little/no success, don’t fret ! At the end of the day, it is YOUR decision, YOU are the mother of your child and YOU have the right to determine what you want to feed her with. Breastmilk is rezeki from Allah, and as for all other rezekis HE blesses us with, HE can take it back whenever HE wants. You should not feel guilty or inferior !

And finally, let’s get something straight, opting to formula feed does not mean your baby will be prone or have less immunity to illness !

xoxo

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dian khayla – 8 months progress report

I started sending Khayla to a nursery early this month. Two weeks have passed, and Alhamdulillah the teachers’ aren’t complaining and Khayla seems chirpy every time I pick her up. :))
Sometimes she looks like she doesn’t wanna go home ! -_____-

Khayla had her first fever 10 days ago. She woke up all cranky at 0300 hours on a Thursday (10/5/2012) and her head was warm to touch. At first I wasn’t sure because she has never had a fever before so I kept touching and touching her body all over. I panicked when I realized she might really have a temperature so I woke Mr. Sunshine up and we took her to the clinic that morning. She had been coughing already, a week prior to that. Her appetite was normal, but she was crankier than usual.

:'(

It was only that evening that I realized that Khayla was teething again. Four upper teeth are sprouting and her gums were pretty swollen. Oh poor baby ! I figured that her fever was due to that(?). I was reluctant to start her on antibiotics but when her cough and phlegm didn’t show any signs of improving after more than a week, I just had to.  It’s sad to see her wake up in the middle of the night because of the cough. She’s much much better now, Alhamdulillah.

Now moving on to Khayla’s milestones..
She claps when we sing “If you’re happy and you know it” or “Tepuk amai-amai”. She has learned to wave already. So cute !

She can stand without support for longer periods now, and cruises along all furnitures in the house. She has successfully crawled up the stairs ! She bounces up and down when she hears a song she likes or when she’s excited and enjoys it even more if we mimic her. Hehe.

Wheeee !

She gets mad when we take things away from her or disallow her from going somewhere/taking something. Her favourite toys are non-toys such as remote controls, tupperwares, handphones, Daddy’s ‘back-scratcher’ (haha), my water bottle, CDs, hangers, and the list goes on. Looks like I don’t have to bother buying real toys for my baby, hehe. She would just throw away things if they don’t appeal to her.

Khayla’s playtime with her hangers.

Her favourite pastime these days is standing while holding on to a rack/cupboard and throwing everything she sees on it on the floor !

Look how happy she is after ‘terrorizing’ the rack behind her !

xoxo

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april sweets.

I turned 28 on April 27. Alhamdulillah. We made our way back to Batu Pahat that night and little did I know my in-laws had a surprise for me. A birthday cake ! Wheee !

Thank you Mak, Abah, Syahieda, Angah & Razy. Love !

Mr. Sunshine and I had our first movie date on the last day of April, it was a belated birthday treat from Mr. Sunshine. The last time we watched a movie together was in June last year. We watched The Avengers (which was AMAZEBALLS !). I was like a jakun in the cinema hall, smiling from ear to ear, looking right and left. Mr. Sunshine was as usual maintaining his ‘macho’ness. Hehe.

The highlight of my birthday date was of course Mr. Sunshine’s surprise lunch treat at Atmosphere 360 Revolving Restaurant at KL Tower ! You see we had planned this date since March, we both took our leaves and Mr. Sunshine said he would make lunch arrangements. He kept me guessing until the very last minute. 🙂
Even after we entered the KL Tower compound, I still thought we were just going for a walk. *slaps forehead*

The place was beautiful and the food was absolutely delicious ! Thank you Sunshine ! *smooches*

We attended Mr. Sunshine’s sister’s degree convocation last Sunday. It was a looooong hot day but at the end of the day, everyone was happy  ! Alhamdullillah, congratulations Syahieda ! 🙂

 

xoxo

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of absence.

I don’t get to sit down and write a whole blog post anymore these days. Usually, whenever I have an idea of what to write, I’ll type it out on my phone. So I have bits and pieces of posts in my phone. When I finally decide it’s high time I posted something, the updates are usually all basi already and I end up deleting everything !

There has been plenty going on since I last blogged.
I shall try to update ASAP.
Bye !

xoxo

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monday memento #2

Belated birthday lunch treat by Mr. Sunshine, 282 metres above ground level, followed by our first movie date after being blessed with Dian Khayla and another sweet surprise from Mr. Sunshine. Love ! 🙂

xoxo

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babysitter needed.

Hi.
Last week, the person who is currently taking care of Khayla told Mr. Sunshine and I that she will only be able to do so until the end of this month.
Why, you may be wondering ?
It’s a long story and I do not want to dwell on it because it will only bring tears to my eyes.

Now, I have no choice but to look for another person/nursery to babysit Khayla and my major concern is that Khayla has serious separation anxiety issues. I cannot imagine how it would be like leaving her with another ‘stranger’. I foresee days full of tears which I hope her new sitter will understand and know how to deal with.

I’m so out of sorts these days !

Sigh.

I hope and pray that we find a good, reliable babysitter/nursery and that Khayla will get over her separation anxiety phase in a short time with (very) minimal tears. Ameen !

xoxo

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