if only.

Currently feeling: Melancholic
Currently feeling: Because Of You – Kelly Clarkson

Life’s sad.
Hm.
If only… I was smarter, not stupid, happier, more trusting blablabla.
Hmm.

Because of you, I find it hard to trust, not only me but everyone around me
Because of you, I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you, I don’t know how to let anyone else in
Because of you, I am afraid.

And this is just the least of my problems.

xoxo