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hey you, i love you.

Good morning.
I am still sniffing and coughing. Yeah, it has been a week now. Bouts of fever come every now and then. But it’s really the sniffing and sneezing that I cannot stand the most. I feel as though my whole brain is clogged up with mucus.
Haha I just had a mental picture of that. Disgusting nya.
There are times it’s a bit difficult to breathe, but I am assuming it’s because of the lack of physical activity.
I happily went to work yesterday morning, only to feel like passing out (I blame the face mask I had to wear) and be chased ordered told to go back home in the afternoon.
I was even told to not come back to work unless I really am free from influenza-like symptoms.
Eh, kenapa awak datang kerja, saya tak suruh pun.”


I had trouble sleeping last night.
Hence me waking up at 7 *yawns* when I know I should be resting and sleeping this fever off.
I could not stop thinking of a friend’s younger sister (my junior in Hillcrest) who lost her husband (who was also my junior) yesterday.
It was a tragic loss.
I found out about what happened to arwah last Sunday night when a mutual friend texted me telling me to recite the doa for arwah, who was presumed to be drowned on his trip to Janda Baik that day.
Search efforts were stopped that night would resume the next morning.
The first thought that came to my head was about arwah’s wife and his four kids (at that time I thought they only had two kids).
When Marc told me they finally found arwah’s body yesterday morning, I felt this huge punch in my chest.
I do not know them that well, but my heart goes out to the wife and kids.
I can only imagine what they’re going through right now.
To lose someone you depend on in such a way at such a young age. :'(
I pray she stays strong.

Correct me if I am wrong, but mati lemas itu salah satu mati syahid kan ?

That’s life for you.
He brings you to life. And He can take you back anytime He wants.

I definitely learnt that the hard way. :'(

Although we might not notice, somehow we tend to take life and the lives of others around us for granted at times.
From simple actions like lashing out at someone for insignificant reasons, not replying text messages when you can and should, to passing judgments/remarks about people you barely know (fitnah is a huge sin) or cutting ties with relatives/siblings.
Sometimes we’re too consumed with our busy lives that we forget that we might not get that tomorrow or that second chance.

Have you hugged your Mum lately ?
Have you told your Dad how much he means to you ?
Have you apologized to your sister for yelling at her this morning ?
Have you told you husband/wife/fiance/fiancee how much you appreciate their presence in your life ?
Have you made that call you promised to make to your best friend ?
Have you prayed ?

My heart aches for you. Al-Fatihah.


Being human, no one can escape from making mistakes.
Some might think they’re better from others; spiritually, religiously, financially or intellectually.
But we must remember that in His eyes, we’re all the same.
What differentiates us is our niat and actions.
Praying five times a day does not guarantee you Jannah (heaven) if you go around bad-mouthing others.
Tak perlu nak menjatuhkan hukum dekat orang, itu bukan hak dan tugas kita.
But saling mengingati memang harus.
Feeling superior from others (riak, takbur) is already such a huge sin.
Your bachelors degree means nothing if you go around boasting about your grades, ignoring other people’s feelings.

This world and universe is a gift, and this whole life is a test.
A test of faith and love.
He showers you with money, what are you doing with it ?
He gives you akal, are you putting it to good use ?
He takes away the luxuries you once had, do you give up ?

Rezeki itu bukan dari segi duit sahaja.
Your family is your rezeki. Alhamdulillah.
Love is your rezeki. Alhamdulillah.
Your job is your rezeki. Alhamdulillah.
Your friends are your rezeki(s). Alhamdulillah.

Whatever we believe in, I am sure it all boils down to the same core.

Oh boy, I am sorry to have nagged this long (and probably put most of you to sleep), but I am writing this to serve as a reminder to myself.
Because we’re all here for a purpose, and I am still working on mine.


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in ruins.

Received a phone call a couple of minutes ago.

“Get ready to extend sahaja lah.”




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sigh sigh sigh.

Happy Friday everyone.
Hope that all of you are doing ok.
This is an emotional post, stop here if you don’t feel like being dragged into my depressing rants.

I am on medical leave at home and am advised to isolate myself from everyone else.
I fell sick with cough, flu along with on and off fever after working the night shift last Monday night. Which is a cause to worry, I guess.
I was started on Oseltamivir as chemoprophylaxis.
I called my preceptor yesterday and told him that I’d come back to work if I feel better, but he told me to stay at home and rest it out and come back on Monday.
The only thing I am worried about is my leave, which I have none left.
I was content with the news that I did not have to extend this phase after discussion with our Head of Department last month, and then I just had to fall sick again, didn’t I ?
Double sigh.
I don’t want to have to extend this and lose my seniority. OK it’s not actually about the seniority status. Who cares ?
Triple sigh.
And just when I tweeted about having a week left from last Tuesday to settle everything (ie: finish up my clinical work, my research write up, get my log book signed by the four preceptors I have left), THIS had to happen.


My mind is so cluttered I wish I could blow my brains out.

Mr Sunshine has the chickenpox and is on leave for two weeks.
And that just adds to this depressing state I am in.


What’s worse than sighing every second ?
So I’ll do just that.


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malam ini malam nisfu syaaban.


*takes a deep breath*



I could not hold it in.
I had to cuss. My apologies. Hehe.
All of us PRPs are currently busy struggling to get our logbooks signed.
We are supposed to hand it in two (or at least one) months before the end of our “PRPship’. Along with our Full Registration and posting application forms. Which I have not posted !
I have FOUR preceptors that I have yet to go ask for their signature because I have still have unfinished business. Sobs.
I’m hoping to get them all done by the middle of this month as I’d be leaving to be in the Pharmacy Enforcement Department for two weeks by then.
We’ll see how things go.

I have gained over 3 kilograms over the past, hmm, to be honest I can’t remember how long it has been since I last could fit properly into my jeans.
I no longer can fit into my usual tees and tops.
Had to buy over-sized tops that I thought I would only resort to wearing when I get pregnant.
Work clothes (translation: baju kurungs) are all like ill-fitting kebayas.
I am just too lazy to watch what I eat, I seem to get gastric attacks more easily nowadays. I’m getting old !
These days, I have breakfast, lunch AND dinner. Yes, I have become as normal as you. Scary. Hehe.
I should be working out.
Even more lazy to do that.
Sigh !
The only person who’s happy is of course Mr Sunshine. -____-
I’ll tone up, when I feel like it. Haha.
I hope my body would still respond well to exercise like it always has.
If not, I’ll just binge eat and force myself to purge or vomit whatever I have consumed.

A cousin of mine passed away last Sunday in a motorcycle accident.
Sad. I was pretty close to him when I was a kid.
Another cousin of mine is currently texting me telling me about all the juicy(?) things she heard at his funeral yesterday.

On that day we will seal their mouths; their hands and feet will bear witness to everything they had done. (Surah Yasin 36:65)

What should I have for breakfast tomorrow ? I’m hungry already.


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i’m thinking i might need more sleep.

Name: M
Age: 25

Chief complaint:
Persistent headache that does not wear off with medication. Took Paracetamol and Diclofenace Sodium on 25/07/2009. Associated with slight blurring of vision and laboured breathing.

History of present illness:
Headache started after getting back from work at 7 am, 25/07/09. Was only able to get 2 hours of sleep, had to wake up to rush to meet caterer to get test food. Rushed to a friend’s wedding right after. Was feeling dizzy by then. Had another 2 hours of sleep but headache did not resolve. Had to do another night shift on the same day. Headache worsened as an unusually huge number of patients flocked the Emergency Department. No lost of appetite, nausea or vomiting.

Acute deprivation of sleep. Hahaha.

Pharmaceutical (and non-pharmaceutical) management:
Cadbury Bytes 80 g STAT
Yahoo Messenger chat with Mr Sunshine STAT
Tramadol 1 cap STAT then PRN. Suka hati je kan.
Gutt. Hypromellose 2 drops PRN BE
To get at least 8 7 6 hours of sleep after work. But I have another wedding to attend later !

To consult doctor if symptoms persist.


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left eye.

Good morning.
I am in Gombak, drove home late last night after picking up Mr Sunshine (he’s down for the match this Saturday) as I thought my eyes were safe to be near Daddy and Marc’s already.
Woke up today with my left eye slightly pinkish and itchy. *straight face*
Daddy was blinking and covering his eyes with his hands when he saw me. (It was cute lah).
Bila nak betul betul baik ni ? 🙁

The fact that I have been falling sick more often than other people do has become an issue at my department now.
I don’t know what’s going through their minds but I just hope they don’t think that I get sick certificates for fun.
It’s no fun being ill and staying in bed the whole day.

I had a 3 hour long phone conversation with one of my best friends last night. *heart smiles*
Funny because we just met up last week and the last time we spent that amount of time on the phone was during our school days. We were reflecting at all the good and bad times we have been through that has made us more mature as individuals and as friends. 🙂
Although we don’t meet up as frequent as we would want to, I am content that even after more than a decade, we still make time to call and text each other every now and then. Alhamdulillah. 🙂

Mr Sunshine will be hanging out with the guys this weekend.
I’m giving him a hard time for not bringing me along to the match.
Merajuk one minute, all normal one minute, then merajuk again. Just for fun. Haha.

It’s almost Ramadhan !

I am confused about which states to put in my placement application form.
Syafiq has decided on Malacca, Johor and Negeri Sembilan.
Talked to Daddy and he’s ok with those choices.
I am a bit hesitant because am worried if they see that I am willing to go out of KL, I won’t get any of those places and they would just chuck me in some faraway (exaggerating, I know) state. Alone. Away from Daddy, away from my husband (soon-to-be). Die.
Help ?


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where i am.

All of a sudden the two of them were in my room.
Talking so loud about how they have been looking for me all this while.
I was lying on my bed pretending to be sleeping with my pillow on my face.
One of them pushed the pillow off my face.
But, neither of them tried to wake me up. All they did was babbled on and on. Argh, irritating.
Then, I got a call confirming my results and the sad fact I am gonna have to stay in this phase a little longer.

That was one WEIRD dream.

So will you be able to look back proudly at how many fibs you have told ?


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cermin diri sendiri dengan teliti sebelum menuding jari dan buat tidak endah.

“Thank you Melissa, for the brilliant presentation.”

No intention to brag, people. I personally did not think I performed brilliantly.
It was just okay.
Nevertheless, I got through it and I am extremely relieved and thankful to Him.
I have two weeks to complete my research write up.

I have yet to present on my clinical case.

Had a durian eating session with Daddy, Marc and Lene an hour ago and I feel stuffed.

Will be leaving in 5 hours time to Kuala Pilah to send Lene off.
I have sad and happy emotions all jumbled up in me.



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hate is a strong word but i really really really don’t like you.

Good morning.
Hope you all had a good week.
I am working at the Emergency Department today. Will be doing so until 3 pm, then head back to (hopefully) get some rest, and come back to work at 10 pm until 7 am tomorrow.

I am feeling a bit sleepy. I have been yawning countless times since I arrived at 7 just now.
Had an awesome girls’ night out at The Curve with Lene, Feli and Judith last night. As a result, I only had 5 hours of sleep.
OK so 5 hours might not sound that bad to you, but honestly, nowadays I can’t function well without at least 6 to 7 hours of sleep. Maybe it’s the age. Or the fact that I am working. And stressed. I don’t know. I feel old.
OK back to last night, the four of us talked, gossiped (gossip, gossip !) and laughed over dinner at Kenny Rogers Roasters. It felt as though time was so envious of us having a good time, because without even noticing, it was already half past 11 pm !
Sigh. But I’m sure we’ll get to hang out again like that soon. We must !
Lene cut chopped her hair short, and I think she looks like Winona Ryder. Daddy says she looks like Audrey Hepburn !

Put a haircut like that on my face and I doubt I would look anything close to beautiful.
I told her that she always makes me feel ‘hair conscious’.
Here I am sporting the same old hairstyle for ages because I don’t have the guts (and face) to do anything to it and there she is getting bangs and pixie haircuts every now and then. I guess I’ll just have to face it, my sister’s cool and I am not. Hehe.
Oh but my hair does need a trim.

My research presentation is next Friday.
Nope, I am not even near being ready for it. I have not analysed my data.
I think I should be able to do so by Monday. I hope !

I am actually mentally preparing myself for the probability of me having to extend my time as a PRP.
What am I saying, I will never be mentally prepared for that. SIGH !

I had a painful gastric attack last night. :'(
Note to self: EAT, please.

Sometimes I get paranoid about eating.
I don’t wanna end up with diarrhea like I did last Wednesday which lasted right up to Thursday evening !
Sigh, my tummy is so mengada.

I just realized that in my previous post I thanked everyone except Mr Sunshine. Errrr, awak terasa ke awak ? Thank you so much awak, tanpa awak, tak ada orang nak bertunang dengan saya. Hee. 🙂
Thank you kepada mak awak yang comel, ayah awak yang nampak garang and adik-adik awak yang cantik-cantik belaka kerana sudi terima saya jadi sebahagian family in the future, InsyaAllah. 🙂

Ann has not passed me the photos from the occasion. She has been busy. I was hoping to get to blog in detail about the whole thing with pictures. But I guess it’s not gonna happen.
Or maybe there will be a delayed report. 🙂

It looks like it’s gonna pour.


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gotta have E71.

My body temperature has returned to normal after almost 48 hours.
I guess I needed the two days worth of rest.
There’s still this annoying slight cough but my throat’s not so sore anymore.

Faiz had an appointment with a Dermatologist at the hospital last Friday evening. He called me earlier to warn me he’d be dropping by and that he’d be wanting to have coffee plus chit chat with me after work.
And so we had coffee (chocolate for me) at Starbucks, Alamanda. He gave me a tour of his iPhone 3G which I thought was pretty cool but I would not see myself getting one. Not my kinda gadget. I’m more of a E71 or Blackberry Bold person. Hee.

Lene came over later that night and we watched Monsters vs Aliens together. She spent the night here and accompanied me to my fellow PRP, Mizah’s wedding last Saturday. I had some work to do so we went to the hospital after the wedding and stayed until almost six in the evening.

Headed to AEON Setiawangsa to look for a few much needed things after freshening up, but went home empty handed. Sigh.

On Sunday Daddy and I went for Lene’s Majlis Anugerah Pelajar Cemerlang SPM Gombak (organized by Biro Pelajaran and Hal Ehwal Pelajar UMNO Bahagian Gombak) at Hotel Putra.
The whole thing was a tad boring, but I felt super proud as usual for my little sister. 🙂
Plus, the food was delicious.

Anndddd I started feeling sick that afternoon. 🙁

Currently feeling a bit off, received an unnecessary phone call and a couple of annoying text messages. Sigh.

I need to focus.
It’s tough. I’m doing one thing but in my mind I’m worrying about another thing.
Stressed nya !

I am so dead.

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