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my mummy is beautiful.

Dearest Mummy,

It’s been a while since I wrote to you.
I am aware that every time I do write, it’ll be a long-winded sad and mushy post.
This time around I am gonna make an effort to keep it as chirpy as I can. 🙂
Because tomorrow is Mother’s Day and no matter how emotionally disturbed I am right now, I know you would want me to try to be happy.

A couple of days ago, I was craving for your fruit cake. I did not go out to look for just any other fruit cake because I knew I would be disappointed.
In my eyes, no one bakes as good as you. No one cooks like you do.
It’s funny because there are moments that the thought of calling you to ask you about how to cook something crosses my mind and then only it hits me that you’re no longer around.
But it’s ok Mummy, according to Mr Sunshine, I have been doing an ok job in keeping his tummy filled with good food. 🙂

I am 6 months pregnant now, Alhamdulillah.
Being pregnant makes me think of you even more. Makes me wonder about how you dealt with all your pregnancies. Did you get backaches or sore heels ? Did you go through morning sickness ? How did you feel when you felt my first kick ? How were your labor experiences ?
I’d have to admit that I get frustrated sometimes because I have so many personal questions on pregnancy that I want to ask you.
But I am blessed to have an awesome mum in-law and friends who I can turn to for answers. The internet has helped me tremendously too. 🙂

Mummy, I am gonna be okay, right ?

Now this wasn’t so bad, wasn’t it ?
I miss you, Mummy.
Al-Fatihah.

To my beautiful mum in-law all you gorgeous mothers out there, Happy Mother’s Day. 🙂

xoxo

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my blissful eid.

Hi everyone. How was your Monday ?
I succeeded in fasting today, despite all the temptations at work.
1 day down, 15 days to go. Yea, FIFTEEN ! 🙂

I hope all of you are still enjoying Syawal. 🙂

Syawal 1431 Hijrah marks the first year Mr Sunshine and I are celebrating Eid together as husband and wife. Alhamdulillah. 🙂
Even though I had to work on the first day of Eid, but having almost the whole of the following week off, I can’t (and won’t) complain. 🙂

I shall continue to bore you with the happenings surrounding my Eid.

My 1st day of Syawal

Instead of making ketupat or lemang or rendang, I gave making soto a try. Spent about three hours in the kitchen on the eve of Eid. Hehe.
And soto was what we had on the first day of Syawal.

Mr Sunshine enjoying my home made soto !

After Mr Sunshine came back from Eid prayers, we had an emotional moment (hehe) when we took turns to salam each other and ask for forgiveness.
Without wasting any time and any more tears, we snapped some photos before I had to leave for work.

 The love of my life. 🙂

Mr Sunshine was such a sweetheart as he came to the pharmacy to see if I needed a hand. He helped dispensed medications to a few patients. 🙂
As soon as I was done with work, we rushed back home to change and then we were on our way back to Batu Pahat. For the first time in my life I could really enjoy and relate to Sudirman’s Balik Kampung song !

We arrived at my in-laws just after Maghrib. By then all the usual eve-and-morning-of-Eid excitement had fizzled and there were only two families of relatives left but getting to savour a plate of delicious ketupat, spicy rendang, delectable lodeh gravy and tasty peanut gravy was wonderful enough. 😀

 Oh yummy !

My 2nd day of Syawal

Following breakfast consisting of all the food pictured above, all of us (Mr Sunshine, my in-laws and I) started our beraya journey to Muar !
From Mr Sunshine’s paternal grandfather & grandmother’s grave to a string of aunts and uncles’ homes. All I had to do was salam people and eat and drink and eat and drink from day to night.

 Took a family photo before we left.
 Raya cookies !

Photo stolen from Mr Sunshine’s cousin, Ain’s camera. She’s the one in orange. 🙂

It was a pity one of Mr Sunshine’s two sisters, Liyana, or more affectionately called Angah, was not able to join us throughout our whole trip. She had to go back to KL on the first day of Eid as she had work. 🙁

3rd day of Syawal

Our beraya excursion continues ! This time to Kota Tinggi and Johor Bahru. Despite the hours of jam we had to endure from Kota Tinggi to Johor Bahru. I had a great time visiting Mr Sunshine’s cousins and maternal grandfather. 🙂
My dad in-law even treated all of us to a short ferry ride at Danga Bay !

With the ever so lovable, Syahieda. 🙂
 Awesome Mak. 🙂

4th day of Syawal


Mr Sunshine took me to the home of the pharmacist he used to work for during his retail attachment.
We squeezed in some time to run some errands for mum in-law, then he brought me to Dataran Batu Pahat to snap some photos until evening.

 The beautiful pink hijab was a gift from Diana. 🙂

I was so wrong when I thought the beraya session for the day has ended for.
After Isya’, the whole family joined a few other families to go to a few houses in the neighbourhood. My in-laws’ place happened to be the last house everyone went to, and by that time it was already past 2300 hours ! I had to excuse myself from the living room because I was yawning every few seconds. Hehe.

A sweet fact about the whole thing was, knowing that I do not drink tea/coffee/Milo etc, mum in-law requested plain water for me in every house we went to !
At the first few houses, I was really touched but as it went on, although I was still touched by her gesture, but I was getting a bit embarrassed and worried about what the host would think of me. Spoiled little daughter in-law ! Haha.
Note: Usually whenever I go to people’s houses where they serve tea, I would take a sip and ask Lene, Marc, Daddy or Mr Sunshine to finish the rest of the cup for me. There are also times when I just don’t take a sip at all, especially when it’s coffee or Milo. And I make sure I always have a bottle of plain water in the car. So this has never been a problem for me all my life.
But being the awesome mum in-law that she is, she just had to go the extra mile for me. :))))

5th day of Syawal

It was time to turn on Sudirman’s Balik Kampung song again, as Mr Sunshine and I drove back to Gombak after breakfast that morning. 🙂

The first house we went to after reaching home was the best friend, Akey’s place. I was beyond excited to see her and her mum and dad that I forgot to snap any photos of us. :'(

Since Angah could not join us during the weekend, we decided to bring Raya to her. Hehe. We picked her up after work and had dinner with her and gave her duit raya. Hehe.

I look so tired in this shot. Angah looks lovely, as usual ! 🙂

6th day of Syawal

Mr Sunshine and I drove to Kajang to pay Diana and Hanan a visit at their new abode. 😀
The place was soo beautiful ! It’s always fun meeting up and chatting with Diana.
I was sad that I was gonna miss their housewarming session the following weekend.

 Friends since we were 12 ! ♥

My Eid would not be complete without meeting up with my Baby Jumbo twin (you would not wanna know how we came up with that nickname), Annisa !

 This was before we were told we were not allowed to take pictures in the cafe. Haha. (Photo credits to Annisa)

While I was with Annisa at Solaris Mont Kiara, Mr Sunshine was meeting up with a friend of his too. 🙂
Annisa drove me home because she insisted that she took me to Empire Shopping Gallery, Subang to check the place out and get myself a box of macaroons.
There was a moment on our way home where our conversations came to a halt when she saw a, “Rainbow !!”. Hahaha.

 Did you think I would go on without putting up the picture of the rainbow ?
Me with my macaroons ! (Photo credits to Annisa)

7th day of Syawal (Malaysia Day)

We woke up kinda early that day, to go visit Mummy. Mr Sunshine took the lead in the short tahlil we had there. 🙂
Sayang, you’re the best.

Then we all got dressed up, and posed for some family photos which were sadly all a bit blurry. 🙁

Lene had a friend’s open house to attend, while the rest of us drove to my cousin, Abang Jai’s place in Sungai Buloh then to Aunt Leha’s place in Shah Alam. Candid shots of the men at Abang Jai’s place.

Due to us being extra busy stuffing ourselves with food, there were no photos snapped in Shah Alam except for these two.

 Daddy Candy. 🙂

We had to part ways with Marc after that because he had a work meeting to attend.
On our way home, we stopped by Amcorp Mall to get my BookXcess membership card and I treated Mr Sunshine and Daddy to A&W’s Rootbeer float. Yummmm !
Even though we only went to a couple of houses, we reached home quite late in the evening, all exhausted !
Did not know (over)eating could be so exhausting.

8th day of Syawal

We decided to take a break from all the food and outings and just rest at home before we leave for Kuala Berang. But after Zohor, I got a minute dose of window shopping and more food at One Utama with Lene and Mr Sunshine. 🙂

 The beautiful sister and I. 🙂

Last minute sugar treats before leaving for Terengganu. *drools* Daddy took a bite from the classic flavoured doughnut on the bottom right before I could take a photo ! And I told him to, “Put it back first, put back, put back, Daddy !” Hehe.

Mr Sunshine and I were back in Kuala Berang just after midnight that day.
And yesterday, we were both back at work. 🙂

I’d have to say that honestly, this is by far the best Eid I have ever had since Mummy left. Alhamdulillah.
I kinda feel bad saying this but when I think about it, I’m sure Mummy would want me to be happy, right ? Of course I would give anything to celebrate Eid with Mummy, but that’s impossible.
I have Allah SWT and Mr Sunshine, my family, in-laws and friends to thank for this blissful bubble that I am in now. Alhamdulillah.
But at the end of the day it all boils down to me, and I should really learn to appreciate the present, instead of dwelling in the past. 
Mummy will ALWAYS be in my heart and prayers. 🙂

I hope your Eid was as good as mine, or better. 🙂

How’s that for what seemed like a never-ending post ? Haha.
Goodnight all.
Have a good week. 🙂

xoxo

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i got you babe.

Hello.
I am having trouble falling asleep.
I do not know whether it’s because it’s that time of the month, or because I have became accustomed to feeling blue whenever Aidilfitri is nearing since Mummy left.

I am secretly afraid of not being able to programme myself to be happy around Mr Sunshine’s family at Raya. It’s not that they’re bad people or anything (they have been great, Alhamdulillah). But I guess this takes getting used to, because I have not even gotten used to Raya without Mummy around, plus the fact I have never been this far apart from my family my entire life.

Oh yeah, and I am having my period now which means I am not pregnant. Yet.
I know I have seemed pretty cool about it all this while but it’s really, really, really starting to get to me. Like, is there something wrong with me ? I feel like I am disappointing not only myself but everyone around me.
Mr Sunshine especially. 🙁

I am all torn up inside right now.

But as Mr Sunshine always say to me, “Semuanya datang dari Allah SWT.”
I know this is so cliche, but everything does happen for a reason.
So,
I shall try not mope around this year during Raya.
I shall try not to worry about things I cannot control.
I shall try not to take insignificant people’s words or actions to heart.
I shall try not to stress myself up over petty things. – This one is the toughest of ’em all !

I should be appreciating the fact that this year will be the first year Mr Sunshine and I will be celebrating Aidilfitri as husband and wife. InshaAllah. Alhamdulillah.
And that I still have my family around even they are miles away. Alhamdulillah.

This better be just my hormones messing around with me.

I’ve gotta get to bed, Mr Sunshine and I have a long day ahead of us tomorrow.
Goodnight.

P.S: Raya cookies status ? Almost gone. Hehe.
xoxo

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