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choppers !

Last Wednesday, the babysitter’s daughter sent me a text message asking me whether I knew that Khayla had teeth already ! She told me that Khayla’s bottom two middle teeth were emerging.

My baby is teething already !

I suspected as much because Khayla has been having restless sleep for the past couple of weeks. She would wake up, cry a bit, roll over and struggle to open her eyes because she’s still so sleepy. This would happen a few times throughout the night. I would have to pat her back to sleep every time. She has been drooling excessively too ! She wouldn’t miss a chance to gnaw on anything and everything.
Whenever I tried to check her gums, she would stick out her tongue and lick my fingers. I couldn’t see anything. A few days ago, she actually chewed on my finger and I felt something sharp, but she still wouldn’t let me check her gums. On Tuesday night, Linn claimed she saw something white on Khayla’s bottom gum but Khayla (as usual) stuck her tongue out when she tried to see what it was.

When I got back that Wednesday, I finally managed to get her to smile without her tongue sticking out and there they were, a small portion of a pair of teeth poking through her gums ! I was soooo excited (and emotional !).


Looks like I’ve gotta go get my baby a toothbrush. :’)


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the lengths we(i) would go to make our(my) baby laugh

Yes, that’s my awful voice in the background. πŸ˜€


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stranger anxiety

Khayla is going through a bad case of separation/stranger anxiety. She gets really uncomfortable around strangers (anyone apart from me, Mr. Sunshine, my family and the babysitter). She cries, fuss and screams(!).
We were back in Batu Pahat last weekend and we attended a kenduri on Saturday. She bawled her eyes out non-stop whenever Mr. Sunshine’s relatives held her ! We had another kenduri to attend that night and the same thing happened. She even resisted being held by Mr. Sunshine’s mum, dad and sister. She would only calm down whenever I or Mr. Sunshine held her. It was so bad that at the end of the day her eyes were swollen from all the crying and she had trouble falling asleep because she was so exhausted (or traumatized ?). πŸ™

I felt so bad for Khayla’s grandparents (my mum & dad in-law) as they can’t hold their only granddaughter for one minute without her screaming her lungs out.

I did a bit of reading on stranger anxiety and this is what I gathered:

Your baby is going through one of her first emotional milestones β€” stranger anxiety. Children this age become very clingy and anxious around new and even familiar people and may cry if suddenly approached by a stranger. Your child may also be more anxious around new people when she’s tired, hungry, or sick. Keep this in mind when you’re around people she doesn’t know, and try not to be upset or embarrassed when she cries in someone else’s arms.I definitely get upset because I don’t like to see my baby cry, but I’m not embarrassed lah.

To calm her down, take her back and hold her yourself. – Check !

When strangers try to approach the baby, tell them to make slow gentle movements which will produce less anxiety than sudden ones.

If your child refuses to be held by a friend or relative, try a slow desensitization process:
1. Work on having her be comfortable in your arms while the other person is around.Rather than have the stranger immediately hold her, which what normally happens !
2. Then, have the person talk and play with your child while you hold her. 
3. Then, hand him over to the other person for a short time and stay close. 
4. Finally, try to leave the room for a few minutes, and see how it goes. 
If your child bawls, try again. Go in and out of the room and eventually, your child will be secure in the knowledge that even though you’re not around at the moment, you’ll always return shortly.

You don’t have to avoid being around strangers or introducing your child to new faces. She’ll benefit from getting used to being around people other than her parents. She needs your patience and understanding to get through this very important stage of development.


I’m gonna try the desensitization process the next time we go back to Batu Pahat. I also think that we need to spend more days in Batu Pahat for Khayla to get used to her grandparents, aunties and uncles. πŸ™‚


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dian khayla – 6 months progress report

Khayla can now sit without support, she can move from a sitting position to being on all fours and can pull herself up to a standing position from a sitting position ! MashaAllah, my baby is growing up so fast.

She can grab and put her pacifier into her mouth, although sometimes she needs to try a couple of times.

She is such an active baby ! She wouldn’t sit still for a second, instead she wants to slither on her stomach all over the house.
She can get up on hands and knees (on all fours), and lunge forward. She hasn’t quite figured out how to crawl forward, hehe. She wants to hold and taste EVERYTHING from wires to plastic bags.

Occasionally, she can also stand while holding on to me/anyone with one arm as if she’s trying to show off her acrobatic skills. Hehe.

I have started giving Khayla solids since she was 5 months old. She’s still not much of an eater yet, but it’s so fun experimenting !

She enjoys watching YouTube videos of Twinkle Twinkle Little Star, Wheels on the Bus and BINGO. I’ll just put those videos on when I need her to stay quiet for awhile. :))

That’s my beautiful Dian Khayla at 6 months for you. πŸ™‚


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i feel like a failure.

Not a day goes by without me feeling terrible TERRIBLE about not being able to fully breastfeed Khayla until at least 6 months. My milk supply has decreased tremendously(!) after I was down with fever and food poisoning a couple of weeks ago. These days, the amount I can express in a day is less than the amount I could express per session before ! The exhaustion from traveling back and forth from Gombak to Shah Alam everyday is also taking a toll on my milk supply. Khayla gets upset whenever she breastfeeds, because there’s just so little milk. To make matters worse, all the milk I have been collecting have gone down the drain because my freezer door wasn’t shut tightly a few days ago. :'(

Khayla is mostly on formula now.

It’s always heartbreaking to read harsh comments about mothers who don’t breastfeed their babies. Some people can be really mean, or perhaps I’m just being over-sensitive. I have nothing against mothers who feed their baby with formula milk, I’m just extremely disappointed with myself. I guess I had my hopes up too high.

I feel so inadequate.

I need to constantly remind myself that it’s ok to formula feed my baby. All my siblings and I were formula fed babies (after confinement).
I need to be grateful that I was able to fully breastfeed my baby for 4 months. Alhamdulillah.
I need to be thankful that Khayla is growing up healthily, tolerating milk and solids well.Alhamdulillah.

Dearest Dian Khayla, Mummy is terribly sorry for not being able to provide you with the best milk. I love you and I promise to provide you with the best of everything else. InshaAllah.

β€œSlowly, over time, I began to understand that my breastmilk was only one portion of Henry’s needs” (A Cup of Comfort for New Mothers: Stories that celebrate the miracle of life, 2009)


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fantabulous february.

Hi !
I’m back ! Hehe.

I know I’ve been such a bad blogger. Sorry !

Marc & Linn’s reception, the best friend tying the knot, Khayla turning half a year old, me getting my first pay from UiTM and meeting new people at the recent workshop I attended, sums up why February was simply fantabulous ! Alhamdulillah.

My first time spending 4 days apart from Khayla wasn’t too bad. I only cried on the first night ! Hehe.
Mr. Sunshine, Daddy, Marc and Linn did such a good job taking care of her while I was gone. I missed both Mr. Sunshine and Khayla tremendously but the tight schedule that I had to adhere to in Terengganu kept my mind from drifting (home). Alhamdulillah. πŸ™‚

Will update soon with some photos, InshaAllah.

Bye !


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khayla meets harith.

Oh my, it’s already the last day of January !

I am just recovering from a day of slight fever, cough, runny nose and vomiting yesterday. My throat’s still sore but I am so much better today, Alhamdulillah.

Alhamdulillah, Mr. Sunshine has been posted to Petaling Jaya since last Thursday.
He is planning to ride his bike to and fro work, something which we don’t see eye to eye about – due to safety reasons – but he insists that he can cut costs if he does so.We went to visit my best friend, Diana last Saturday and when we found out that her husband rides a bike to work too, I knew it was no use disagreeing with him anymore. πŸ™
But it’s such a blessing that he’s here, Alhamdulillah. πŸ™‚

Diana’s baby boy, Harith is soooo adorable ! Always with a smile on his face, he was so active rolling around the living room.
He and Khayla were born a month apart. To have my best friend also have a baby the same age as mine is awesome ! We frequently exchange stories about how our little ones are doing. πŸ™‚

Wheee ! Khayla clearly wasn’t in the mood for a photo, unlike Harith. πŸ™‚

Khayla & Harith – holding hands on their first date, haha.

We were back in Batu Pahat during the long Chinese New Year weekend. One of my sister in-law got engaged, yayyyy !! Alhamdulillah. πŸ™‚

Her nikah is planned for March next year, InshaAllah. Khayla took quite a long time (3 days to be exact) to warm up to my in-laws ! She would cry (read: scream) whenever any of them held her, and would only calm down if I hold her.

I have been losing so much hair recently, and along with the fact that Khayla loves to tug at my hair, I finally decided to cut it short while we were in Batu Pahat. It has been years since I had real short hair. So now I would love to think I look like this..

..but instead I think I look like Peter Pan.

Well actually Lene has been calling me that ever since I chopped off my hair. Haha..

Work has been good, Alhamdulillah. The traveling can get pretty exhausting but it’s still manageable lah.

People (including mum in-law) have been asking whether Mr. Sunshine and I are planning to get a house nearer to our my workplace but we have decided to stay in Gombak for a couple of years first or until we’re really ready to settle down elsewhere.


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dian khayla – 5 months progress report

Dian Khayla at 5 months.

Alhamdulillah, she has mastered the art of rolling over, although she only rolls to her right. Once she’s on her tummy, she doesn’t roll back. Hehe. She has been trying to lift her butt off the floor, which results in her pushing herself  backwards or to the side.

She grabs anything and everything, putting them in her mouth either to lick or bite them. She even licks people’s faces !

She is no longer fully breastfed ! *cries tears of blood*

I started supplementing with formula milk since 28 December 2011, because Khayla refuses bottled EBM at times. I couldn’t bear to let her starve, so I gave in.

I still feel so awful, feel like I’ve failed as a mother to provide the best for my baby. :'(
But I guess as long as she’s growing up healthily, I should be grateful. Alhamdulillah she nows weighs 7.1 kgs !
She drinks Mamex Gold at the babysitter’s, and will breastfeed at night and on weekends. Alhamdulillah she has been adjusting pretty well at the sitter’s, after a couple of days of non-stop wailing. Leaving her in the mornings is difficult as she would pout and cry a bit. It amazes me that she can sense I’d be leaving her at such an age.

She loves playing with her feet !

Her legs are getting stronger, and she enjoys her ‘standing time’. She can sit up well when supported, and loves to play with her aunties and uncle at home. She is slowly warming up to her Atuk a.k.a Daddy. Hehe. She is quite the talker, and “abababababa, maaamaa,” are her usual words. πŸ™‚

Mummy’s lil’ girl. πŸ™‚


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dian khayla – 4 months progress report

My baby girl is 4 months old already ! Alhamdulillah, and MashaAllah she never fails to amaze me everyday. Khayla currently weighs 6.3 kgs, Alhamdulillah.

She can hold her head up pretty steadily now, and she tends to turn her head to the right, left, up and down to look at EVERYTHING, hence carrying her is a bit of a challenge these days. She’s such a curious little baby !

She’s also very easily distracted, she would turn to look the second she hears a sound or sees light. And because of that, breastfeeding is not so easy anymore. She can already use her hands to grasp things and she’s putting that to full use by grabbing anything that’s in her sight (including my hair, ouch !). She seems to be enjoying putting things into her mouth too.

She would beg (read: cry) for us to carry her around the house when she’s bored of lying and rolling on her mattress. Yes, she can roll over from lying on her back to the front too, but that talent still needs a little brushing up. Hehe. She almost gave me a heart attack when she rolled off her mattress onto the carpet yesterday morning !

During the past month, she has stopped taking long naps during the day, like she used to. Even when she’s in her cradle – she would have 30 to 45-minutes naps, 3 to 4 times a day. But Alhamdulillah she goes to bed earlier these days, around 2300 hours to midnight, and wakes up once or twice for milk.

She gets tickled when we make funny noises or blow at her tummy and neck. But she’s also an expert at staring blankly at us when we try to make her smile/laugh. We call that look the “Whatever!” or “That’s not funny, Mummy/Ayah!” look, which looks something like the photo below. Hehe.

I think that’s about it for this month’s update, I can’t wait to discover other surprises Dian Khayla has for Mr. Sunshine and I. :))


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rolling with the homies.

Hello, here’s a quick update on what has been going on during the past week:

  • I finally got my pelepasan dengan izin application signed. Alhamdulillah. I hope it won’t take too long to get processed. I’m gonna bug the people in MOH everyday from now on.
  • Babysitter’s issue has been resolved. Alhamdulillah. I’m still sending Khayla to the same sitter.
  • Juggling my career along with being a Mummy is exhausting (and stressful). HATS OFF TO ALL YOU SUPERMUMS OUT THERE ! But I’m so thankful for a very supportive and helpful hubby who doesn’t mind chipping in on doing some house chores. Alhamdulillah. Mr. Sunshine, I can’t thank you enough, so this is for you:
*pretty apt now that they’ve tripled in size, huh ? Hehe.

  • Khayla has started to roll over !! We just discovered this new talent of hers two nights ago. I was so excited I recorded it for my your viewing pleasure. Hehe. Well, to be honest there’s a recording of her every day in my phone. I’m obsessed !

I’m soooo proud of my baby girl ! She can’t roll from her back to the front YET but it’s a great start ! :))

Enjoy the rest of the week, everyone ! Bye !


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