Category: family

17
Dec
2023

Mid December Life Update!

categories: babble, family, friends, health/wellness, Mental Health, work

Tiba-tiba ada mid-December life update. 😆

I survived the past week by dragging my feet to work on most days. There were moments I broke down at work. But Alhamdulillah – what’s important is I survived.

I started walking outdoors again on weekends (or on days I do not have to send kiddos to school in the morning). I’m actually starting to remember why I loved it. Besides my foot hurting and being so focused on my pace that I got overwhelmed, I loved how the morning breeze & sun made me feel. I loved how I could listen to Al-Mathurat or zikir while I walked. This was also the time I used to listen to podcasts and sometimes a fun playlist.

On Wednesday, I had a tearful conversation with the kiddos. I was asking them whether I could borrow their money to pay off some monthly commitments. Argh, that was so depressing. 😭

On Friday, we received news that they are closing down the pharmacy where I work at.
And they are giving all of us one month’s notice.
A part of me felt liberated because working 6 days a week was taking a toll me (read: depression). But of course, I am also worried about losing an income source. Especially now. 🫤

I need to get a new job!

Last Friday was Khayla & Khaleel’s last day at school for 2023. I still can’t believe Khayla will be starting secondary school next year zomg!

And yesterdayyy I had a breakthrough, Alhamdulillah.
Remember how I shared I was struggling with acceptance?
Well, it has been a rough 7 weeks since then, but yesterday I opened up to a colleague at work. I briefly shared about my diagnosis and what I was dealing with. She was really sweet about it, Alhamdulillah. That made me decide that maybe I am ready to share the truth with more people. Without the shame, or maybe with little shame. 😬
Today, I told my sisters-in law. I have been avoiding their questions about my wellbeing for quite some time now (as I have with so many other people!). What a relief that they now know.

Also today, I met up with Kesten. She is the first human being to meet me in person since November. Well, apart from my family and people at work. She proposed something that would hopefully help my business grow. We’ll see how it goes. Will share more deets as we progress.

There you go, my mid December life update! 😊

Stay tuned for more updates, ecewah.
OK bye!

xoxo

03
Dec
2023

This is An Achievement!

categories: babble, family, Khaleel, khayla, Mental Health, mr. sunshine

It’s 11:30 a.m and I have:

Walked indoor for an hour
Washed my hair
Applied henna on my hair (Khayla wanted to do so too, so we did it together 😍)
Hung all my dresses & jubahs which were in a basket for almost 2 weeks now
Ironed all Mr Sunshine’s work clothes for the week, and Khayla’s uniform for today’s graduation ceremony.
Cleared up the mess in the living room, and on dining table
Washed all the dishes including the kuali & rice cooker from 2 days ago (euw, I know. Mr Sunshine usually does it if I do not, but it’s been a hectic week for him too)
Got the diffusers running downstairs and smiled while doing it (they haven’t been on for ages!)
Tapped for 13 minutes

These might seem like nothing to most of you, but for me, this is an achievement!

Especially after such a mentally & emotionally challenging (and exhausting!) week. Up until last night, things were just so heavy that I wondered whether I will ever be OK.

This has been a hectic weekend with Khaleel’s Novice Swim Meet & Khayla’s graduation, Mr Sunshine’s run and me working. But Alhamdulillah everything is looking good so far.

And Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah for this ‘morning of achievement’. Thank you Allah. 🥲

Oh, it just started raining very heavily.
I guess I’ll stop here for now.
Gotta go get ready for Khayla’s graduation ceremony – can’t believe she is finishing primary school already! Where did 12 years go? 🥲

Bye!

xoxo

05
Oct
2018

What’s New?

categories: babble, family, Khaleel, khayla, mr. sunshine

So what’s new with me after more than a year of leaving the blogosphere?

I have so much to tell but I don’t think I can cram everything into one post.

Nevertheless, I guess I’ll take it from this post.

Alhamdulillah, Mr Sunshine graduated with flying colours last year and has started working again. This means that he would no longer be at home to take care of the kids should the need arise. It got back to us taking turns to take leave.

convocation — Mak and I with Mr Sunshine on his graduation day!

However, we also found a substitute babysitter to send the kids to when the both of us are unable to take leave. She happens to be the sister in-law’s babysitter who Alhamdulillah is nice & Khayla loves her. Khaleel on the other hand, needs a little warming up every time we send him there because he is very attached to his current sitter whom he affectionately calls ‘Mama’.

This is kind of worrying to me as we are planning to send him to a montessori starting next year but InshaAllah hopefully he will be fine.

Khaleel has grown up to be a very active & talkative kid, Alhamdulillah.

However, I must share that in February this year, he had an afebrile seizure attack when he was at the sitter’s. When I got to him, he was so weak for at least 3 hours & it scared the hell out of me. But of course, it was the usual post-ictal symptom one would experience after a seizure attack.

A colleague of mine helped to send us to the hospital where he was warded for a few days and had an electroencephalogram (EEG) & an MRI carried out on him. He had to be sedated for the MRI, so he had to fast and it was not easy handling a hungry (and thirsty) kid especially when he was begging you for your milk.

I bruised my right arm throughout the process, both arms were sore and my chest hurt from him banging his head on it. But Alhamdulillah, his MRI turned out normal. However, his EEG did show signs of seizure activity.

When trying to deduce what triggered the attack, the specialist told us it could have been due to the loss of electrolytes as he was vomiting a couple of days prior to that. In addition, we have family histories of febrile & afebrile fits.

It was such a physically & emotionally challenging period for us and definitely one of the scariest moments in my life.

Khayla is in Standard One, can you believe it?

Alhamdulillah, she is doing well in school. She really enjoys swimming, talking, singing & participating in all of her school activities. I pray she continues to have this passion for school, for studying and extra-curricular activities.

It’s funny that one minute she’s telling me she’s best friends with this person and in another minute, they’re not friends anymore. Then, in the following minute, they’re friends again! I don’t remember going through this much drama when I was in Standard One. Haha.

merdeka — Khayla got through to the finals of her school’s pakaian beragam Merdeka competition wearing this outfit.

She will be sitting for her final exams next week, inshaAllah. And oh boy, have you seen the Standard One syllabus these days? I feel sorry for all these kids who have to crack their heads just to follow the syllabus. Please keep Khayla in your prayers!

Daddy had a minor heart attack in March. 🙁

He was admitted for a week and after a series of tests & appointments, it was decided that he would have to go for a bypass. He had his bypass in July, and was discharged after 2 weeks. Sadly, he was readmitted into the ICU due to an infection on the wound on his leg where they made the incisions for the bypass. 🙁

He is now staying with Marc and we hire a nurse to look after him during the day. He is slowly recovering and making progress, albeit slower that expected. Please keep him in your prayers as well!

Marc has moved into a landed quarters!

His new place is in a pretty quiet & cozy neighbourhood where the kids get to play outside & Daddy can take his walks without having to use a lift to go up & down.

Marlene has completed her Bachelors in Dentistry, Alhamdulillah!

Hellooo free veneers! Eh? Haha.

As for myself, work has been stressful as usual but good, Alhamdulillah. I have also dabbled in the world of essential oils, which I shall share in my next post, InshaAllah.

Until my next post, see you!

xoxo