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Category: emo

radical or xenical ?

Currently feeling: Stuffed
Currently listening to: Syrup And Honey – Duffy

I’m stuffing myself with yogurt right now.
I know it’s almost 1 a.m. but I’m hungry la okay.

My day at work yesterday was a dreadful one.
Partly because I wasn’t really in the jolliest mood.
Also because I had to deal with a few annoying customers.

Scene 1
Woman: Adik, bagi makcik ubat warna oren tu.
Me: (There’s like so many orange coloured tablets/capsules okay, woman) Ubat warna oren yang mana, makcik ?
Woman: Ala yang makcik selalu beli tu.
Me: (Okay, if you selalu beli you would know that I’m not selalu here and I’ve never seen you before. Ergh.) Hmm, makcik makan ubat tu untuk apa ?
Woman: Alaaa, yang makcik selalu beli kat sini tu !
Me: Hmm, ye la, but makcik makan untuk apa ? Sakit ke ?
Woman: Ha ye ye, untuk sakit-sakit ni.
Me: (Ergh, you could’ve told me earlier la kan.) Okay, (takes tablets) yang ni kan ?
Woman: Ha ye la.

Scene 2
Man: (Brings two bottles of repacked calamine lotion to the counter) Ini berapa ringgit ye ?
Me: (Are you like blind, the price is right on the bottle.) *smiles* Hm, RM 3 satu.
Man: Ha, if saya beli dua untuk RM 5 boleh ?
Me: (Ergh, you think this is the pasar malam is it ?) Hm, I’m sorry, tak boleh la pakcik, yang ini kami dah repack punya, memang dah murah.
Man: Ha kejap-kejap. (Walks out and talks on the phone and comes back in) If you bagi dua untuk RM 5 memang I beli.
Me: (Feels like punching him in the face) Pakcik, memang tak boleh la. I’m sorry.
Man: Hm, tak payah la macam tu. (Goes out and slams the door.)

Scene 3
Woman with botox-overdose face: Nak Radical, radical.
Me: Radical ?
Woman with botox-overdose face: (Huge sigh, rolls her eyes) Yang untuk kurang lemak itu.
Me: Xenical ke ?
with botox-overdose face: Ha.
Me: (Shows woman Xenical) Yang ini ke ?
Woman with botox-overdose face: Bukan la bukan la. Mana you punya boss ha ??
Me: Dia keluar sekejap. Hm, Reductil ke ? (Shows her Reductil)
with botox-overdose face: (Huge sigh, rolls her eyes, again) Yes, this one.
Me: Okay, satu strip ?
with botox-overdose face: Ya.
Me: That’ll be RM**
with botox-overdose face: (Hands me the money and takes the strip)
Me: Thank you. *smiles*
with botox-overdose face: (Huge sigh and rolls her eyes, AGAIN and walks off)

STUPID, right ?

Okay, glad I got that off my chest.

Work at the NTV7’s Futsal Carnival last Saturday was fun, though. Been with them for the past three weekends already and this Sunday would be the last one. Sobs.
Mr. Sunshine came down on that day. He was there with a couple of my classmates. I was so happy to see them, Mr. Sunshine in particular. *heart smiles*
He helped snap photos of Lene and I.

The sister and I.

A sweaty me.

My arse and the Speed Radar Cage.

Isa, Me, Syafiq and Arief.

Thanks for coming, you guys.
And Sunshine, thank you for the wonderful night.
Love you.

Argh, work tomorrow, gotta get to bed.


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Currently feeling: Fat
Currently listening to: Songs In My Pocket – Bethany Joy Galeotti

“Yeah, don’t gain some more weight, you’re short.”

Now tell me how do you love yourself again ?


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if only.

Currently feeling: Melancholic
Currently feeling: Because Of You – Kelly Clarkson

Life’s sad.
If only… I was smarter, not stupid, happier, more trusting blablabla.

Because of you, I find it hard to trust, not only me but everyone around me
Because of you, I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you, I don’t know how to let anyone else in
Because of you, I am afraid.

And this is just the least of my problems.


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let’s have a slumber party.

Currently feeling: Melancholic
Currently listening to: Black Horse And The Cherry Tree – KT Tunstall

I’ve been away. Not literally.
Just have been dealing with some issues that have been lingering around me.

And also because the internet connection here has been terminated.

Pojie left last Sunday.
Yamin did so too, last Friday.
I didn’t know it’d be this sad.
I mean my tears were overflowing that Sunday morning.
Classmates for six years.
Housemates for one.
Wah, damn depressing isn’t it ?

I guess what happened is inevitable.
I guess I don’t handle people leaving very well.

People always leave.
(Peyton Sawyer, One Tree Hill)

Peyton reminds me so much of the sister.
She (the sister) thinks it’s a sign that she should get her hair permed.

What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, they say.
Yeah, right.

I wouldn’t mind a slumber party.
You know, the kind where I can talk about anything to my girlfriends, do each other’s nails and have pillow fights.

Hey you, I wished I had more nights like these with you.
You know, the kind where we can just sit together, hold hands and cuddle, and do nothing.
We don’t always need to have a plan or know what we want to do to be happy, right ?

Something is bloody wrong with my mouse.
And why the hell can’t I burn DVDs anymore ?

My eyes are tearing. Pedih.
I think it’s because of me overloading on mascara lately.
You know, to give the impression of wide peepers and cover up the fact that I have been losing on sleep and crying too much.

Oh, oh how could I have forgotten, I went to this waterfall last Saturday. I believe it was called Chilling or something. Chilling baby, how cool of a name is that ? Hee.



The guys went on and on complaining on how shallow the water had become due to the recent logging activities in the area. The water was filled with sand. It (the water) used to be up until over their heads, apparently.
But hey, that’s a good thing for me, okay ! Haha.
We had yummy barbequed chicken. Hee.
Ah, sad.
It’d probably be the last time that I’d ever see those people. I mean I won’t be seeing them for quite some time after this.

Okay, enough rambling this time.

I’ve got some serious thinking to do.


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Currently feeling: Pained
Currently listening to: Sempurna – Gita Gutawa

Am I the only one who doesn’t feel liberated ?
Can someone tell me why ?
The anticipation just fizzled out miserably.

The interview was okay.
I think.

But, Alhamdulillah.

My head hurts.

Here are pictures from the outing with Annisa.
We were at The Curve.
She sort of made me her model for the day, to shoot with her new SLR camera.

I have yet to pack my books.
I’m too darn lazy.

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panas nak mam***.

Currently feeling: Angry
Currently listening to: Through The Rain – Mariah Carey


Or at least make ME kill someone.

Arrrgghhhhhh !


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idiot box.

Currently feeling: Depressed
Currently listening to: Nothing

Woke up today in a considerably good mood, even though I still have quite a bit more to study.
But as usual, something just has to happen to ruin the mood.
So this time it was no one’s fault.
This time it was the television which brought me down to tears.
They’re airing this show about Mother’s Day in which viewer’s can call in to make dedications.
I shall go sink my head in my pillow and cry my heart out now.


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Currently feeling: Cranky
Currently listening to: Linger – The Cranberries

You know the type of dreams which cause you to wake up feeling cranky/grouchy etc. ?
I don’t like them.


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my hair’s dyed. so ?

Currently feeling: Sleepy
Currently listening to: Golly Sandra – Eisley

I haven’t slept.
I haven’t studied that much either.
I did study a lot.
I just don’t remember that much.

Mr. Sunshine spent fifteen hours accompanying me just now.
He didn’t have to.
But he did.
*heart smiles*

Finals started two days ago for me. And OMG, it was a disaster !
I felt that I had studied as hard/much as I could but I still had a tough time answering. Sigh.
But I guess what’s done is done and I shouldn’t let that hinder me from concentrating on my next papers.
I can !
I’m not really sure I can.

My arse and hips are HUGE now I tell you.
It has been a while since I got into my baju kurungs, and when I did last Wednesday, the kain was tight okay. It was my baju kurung, not my kebaya (which I think would tear if I tried it on right now). Blergh.
Too much sitting on my arse that’s why !
I need to walk more, like I used to.
How to walk and study ? Can ah ?

Why do people always judge others by how they look or what they wear ?
How can you assume that a person is (insert adjective here) just by looking at him/her ?
Bukan ke berdosa macam tu ?
But that’s a sad fact of life, eh ?
You become a victim of stereotype and discrimination, just because you’re different. Just because you’re not their type.

I don’t like Milo.
I can eat Milo.
I don’t like drinking Milo.

I initially planned on writing about something else.

I miss my Gombak people.

I need to do a little more studying, then I’ve gotta get to bed.
I feel a headache coming on.


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Currently feeling: Sad
Currently listening to: The Last Goodbye – James Morrison

I’ve got so much on my mind.
I can’t seem to get them out in words.

Focus, Melissa.

I want donuts.


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