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decisions, decisions, decisions.

I have a couple of important decisions to make.
I am praying for a sign to let me make the right ones.


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lizard dreams.

Good morning everyone. πŸ™‚
It’s another beautiful Ramadhan morning !

Since it’s just the two of us, sahur for Mr. Sunshine and I have always been simple. I would either fry some rice, fry eggs and sausages or make french toast etc etc.
This morning I made chocolate chip pancakes. πŸ™‚

Fasting was a bit of a challenge for me yesterday, I felt extremely weak and by the time I got back home from work, I was literally shaking and had to lie down.
What’s amazing was that Mini Mel was super active the whole day yesterday.
It’s as though she was telling me that she’s alright and giving me strength to continue fasting. πŸ™‚
And that’s what I did. Alhamdulillah.

Last night as I was wiping my face before going to bed, a baby lizard jumped on my arms ! I pushed it off and it landed on my towel. I assumed it was there the whole while and I was the one ‘invading its territory’. I vigorously shook my towel, but it didn’t budge for a good one minute or so. When it finally did, images of it crawling into my ears, nose and other body cavities of mine haunted me.
I had trouble falling asleep !

This morning I hesitated for a bit before touching my towel.
Now that I think about it, I think I’m gonna put it to wash. Hmm.

Mr. Sunshine came home with a surprise yesterday.

A Sweet Cherry SCR7 Carrier Carseat !
Wheee !
He has been scouting for a baby carseat/stroller for quite some time now. πŸ™‚
Thank you sayang !
Now let’s pray our baby will have no problems adjusting to being in the seat. Hehe.

Ramadhan blessing: Still having the energy to go to work and not have gastric attacks. Alhamdulillah.


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Thank you Allah for giving me the strength to fast for the past 6 days.
So far there hasn’t been any fainting spells, only occasional dizziness which go away if I sit or lie down.

Yesterday was the last Friday that I had to work before I give birth. No more working on the weekends ! Woohoo !
We welcomed two new Pharmacists to the hospital last week, one Provisionally Registered Pharmacist (PRP) and one Fully Registered Pharmacist (FRP).
Reshuffling of current posts is in the works.
I haven’t really figured out how I feel about all the changes.

If all goes well, I’m hoping I get to go back to Gombak for at least one night before heading back to Batu Pahat before my EDD. Daddy agrees that it’s a good idea to break the trip into two, so that we can rest in between.
Apart from that, I really want a chance to break fast with Daddy, Marc & Lene, since I didn’t have the chance to do so last year. πŸ™

Uncomfortable Braxton Hicks contractions are quite common these days.
I can only imagine how real contractions feel like.

The weekend’s almost over for me, sigh ! Gotta get my mind ready for work tomorrow.

Ramadhan blessing: The appreciative smile I get from Mr. Sunshine’s when he’s stuffed with the food I cook for berbuka.  


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ramadhan 1432H.

Salam Ramadhan everyone !

I’m hoping I will be able to fast smoothly along with the rest of you, well that is until Mini Mel says hello. Ameen.

Happy fasting, let’s get busy collecting pahalas. πŸ™‚


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she’s almost 2 kilos now !

anxΒ·iΒ·eΒ·ty   [ang-zahy-i-tee]
–noun, plural -ties.
1. distress or uneasiness of mind caused by fear of danger or misfortune: He felt anxiety about the possible loss of his job.
2. earnest but tense desire; eagerness: He had a keen anxiety to succeed in his work.
3. Psychiatry . a state of apprehension and psychic tension occurring in some forms of mental disorder. source

At 30 weeks pregnant, I am plagued with anxiety 24-7.

I am starting have second thoughts about delivering my baby in a government hospital, no thanks to my brief yet traumatizing (haha) maternity ward admission last week.

I doubt I am capable to withstand the pain which comes along with labour. I have a wayyy low pain threshold.
I am afraid that I would not be able to stop myself from screaming in pain and the nurses/doctor would get annoyed and angry at me and I would get depressed and that would lead to me not having enough energy to push and………………………….

I am unsure whether I have it in me to be a good mother. I have never been good with babies. I don’t even know the proper way to hold a newborn ! *gasps*
Don’t get me wrong, I love babies, but I have never actually had to take care of one.

Ok, I should stop over-thinking things.

But these concerns of mine are normal, right ? RIGHHHHTTTTTT ??


Mr. Sunshine has been away in Kelantan since yesterday and will only be back this Thursday, InshaAllah. As he goes on these work trips pretty often, I have gotten quite used to staying home alone.
This time around, I am slightly nervous, especially because my hospital bag is only halfway ready. We have packed all of the baby’s necessities but as far as my essentials are concerned, there are a few more things I need to add in the bag.

Baby’s clothes washed and dried. This is just to show how cute and tiny they are !! Hehe.
 My Hospital Bag checklist

Baby’s essentials
7 pieces of disposable diapers DONE
2 pairs of rompers DONE
1 pair of long sleeved top & bottom DONE
1 bottle of telon oil DONE
I pack of baby wipes DONE
1 piece of a hooded baby towel DONE
1 piece of a hooded baby blanket DONE
2 sets of mittens & booties DONE
1 set of baby toiletries DONE
1 piece of baby binder (I wonder if I should pack more) DONE
3 pieces of washcloths DONE

Mummy’s essentials
2 pairs of blouses –
1 pair of socks DONE
2 pieces of kain batik DONE
3 pieces of nursing bras
1 pack of disposable panties (not too sure whether this will be enough) DONE
Toiletries – cleanser, toothbrush, toothpaste DONE except for my cleanser.
1 Towel DONE
1 pack of maternity pads (I packed my normal sanitary pads) DONE
1 pack of disposable breast pads DONE
1 sweater – I can’t fit any of my sweaters anymore ! Haha.
1 instant hijab
Surah Yasin
Antenatal checkup record book

Apparently I should have been done with the packing and the bag should be in the trunk of my car or somewhere near my house door, you know, just in case. *starts to panic*

I should give my back & head a rest right now before I hurt myself.


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i need a good eye cream.

It’s only Tuesday but I feel as though I have been working non-stop for weeks. Ok, so I’m exaggerating, but I am feeling extremely exhausted !

This is probably to be expected as I am entering my third trimester, Alhamdulillah.
The familiar exhaustion that I had to go through during my first trimester is coming back to haunt me. A good night’s sleep is pretty difficult to get these days, not only because of my expanding belly, but also because I need to wake up to pee a few times throughout the whole night.

My tired eyes are making me look so old.

Maybe I shouldn’t stay in front of my laptop for too long, eh ?

Ok bye.


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sung kang is delicious.

I don’t enjoy leaving my blog idle for so long whenever my last post is a negative one.
I feel as though it leaves a bad impression on myself.

I’m doing much better emotionally right now, Alhamdulillah.
Apart from praying, Mr. Sunshine, Akey and my family are a good source of comfort. πŸ™‚
Mr. Sunshine took me out for an impromptu movie marathon date last Saturday. We watched Kung Fu Panda 2 and Fast Five.
In my opinion, the sequel to Kung Fu Panda was better than the original film. I was laughing like a kid throughout the whole movie ! Baby seemed to be having a blast in my uterus too, kicking, punching and squirming from the beginning to the end of the movie. Haha.
At first I thought he/she was disturbed by all the noise coming from outside but the exact opposite happened when we were watching Fast Five.
Baby behaved really well, only kicked twice as if he/she knew the movie was not suitable for below 18 year-olds. Hehe.

Baby Po is so adorable ! And always hungry (like me, haha) !

Speaking of always being hungry, I found out that my weight had shot up another 3.5 kgs in the span of two weeks (!!!) during my antenatal checkup last Monday.
It’s really weird because I weighed myself at home before I went to the checkup, and I was so sure I weighed 1 kilo less than what it showed on the weighing scale at the clinic. Not that it’s a major difference, but it’s still a difference. :p
Hence, I have to go through another MOGT test next week, get my blood pressure checked every other day again, and get my blood checked for signs of pre-eclampsia. πŸ™
My previous MOGT test came out normal, Alhamdulillah. So far, everything’s looking normal, except for my weight !

The doctor did an ultrasound on me to check the baby’s estimated weight and the condition/amount of my amniotic fluid. Baby’s weighing around 1.3 kilos right now – which is normal for 27 weeks – and there were no abnormalities with my amniotic fluid.

So, what does that leave us with ?
My butt is the sole culprit of my weight gain ! Ok boobs too, but a*** is huger. Hehe.

Moi at 27 weeks. πŸ™‚

I’m praying I don’t end up with gestational diabetes or pre-eclampsia or any other complications. Ameen.

I think it’s best I give my back a rest already.
Goodnight everyone. πŸ™‚


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who do you think you are ?

Good morning.
I was awaken earlier than usual this morning, because I dozed off just after 2100 hours last night.
Mr. Sunshine was not even back from his futsal game at the time.

I felt so drained, albeit yesterday being the only first day of my working week. I had trouble sleeping the night before.
In addition to that, I came back from work, with tears in my eyes. And continued to cry until I fell asleep. :”(

Initially, I thought I knew for sure why I was bawling my eyes out, but as the night progressed, I was confused.
I was aware I should not let her words get to me, but I did.
So I ended up questioning myself. Doubting myself. I was overwhelmed. Last night was just so messed up.

But today is a new day, so I shall try to leave the past behind and brace myself for what’s ahead !
Sound believable enough ? Haha.

Have a good week everyone !


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i am craving for…

Nando’s Hot Peri peri Quarter Chicken set. Photo credits to Google Images.

Koryowon’s Bulgogi Jungsik.

Carl’s Junior’s Chili Cheese Fries.

Wondermilk’s cupcakes.

Swensen’s Frosted Chocolate Malt.

Swensen’s Chicken Baked Rice.

Murni’s Carbonara pasta. Photo credits to Google Images.
Whisk’s Macarons.

Sri Gombak’s Spicy Pan Mee. Photo credits to Google Images.

IKEA Meatballs. Photo credits to Google Images.


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table file ?

For the first time in history,*drumroll please* I have managed to complete ALL the tasks from work that I brought home, on the first day of my weekend ! Alhamdulillah. YAYYYYY !!
I should stop doubting myself.
Ok let’s not get ahead of ourselves, hehe.

I deserve a treat.
Dum tee dum tee dum….
*skips to the kitchen*


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