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Month: February 2009

miss you already.

Currently feeling: Blue
Currently listening to: Nothing

I am just in no mood to do anything except sit in my room and sleep. And maybe cry a bit or a lot. Who cares, right ?
Mr Sunshine is on his way back to Terengganu (he was already in Kemaman the last time I checked and that was about half an hour ago) and I am extremely sad.
We did not get to spend much quality time together this time around, we met last night (Friday) at around 8 pm as I got off work pretty late and he had to settle a couple of things pertaining to his car earlier in the day.
He helped me moved most of my things into my new room, then we had a late dinner, and before we knew it, it was today (Saturday) and he had to send his car to the tint shop which took fucking 4 hours to finish as there were many cars in line. We were stuck there the whole time.
Then he had to leave early to avoid arriving too late as he’s working tomorrow.
I despise this feeling.
All the anticipation I had the whole month, pushing through every single day knowing that it brings me a day closer to being able to be in his arms again.
But it all just has to end so fast. And I have to wait for another month (or more) before we can see each other again.
I hate kissing his hand before he leaves.
I hate the sad stare he gives me. I believe he does not know it’s noticeable.
I hate that I already miss him (tremendously !!) just seconds after he leaves.
I hate the fact that he has to leave !

This is seriously depressing.


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tarzan in town.

Currently feeling: Sore
Currently listening to: Nothing

Tarzan in town.
Uhuh, that’s the name of the water game I had to play at the hospital’s Pharmacy Department Family day at Desa Waterpark yesterday. That and a couple more games which is why my arms and legs are so freaking sore right now.
The whole event was not as bad as I expected it to be, I was hesitant to go actually. But it went okay I guess. I had quite a good time.

My lappie’s with Trev, he’s gonna give a try at reformatting it. I hope he can, I need to get started on my research. I just got the topic I have to work on. I’d be doing a retrospective study on the impact of Novomix 30/70 on glycemic control.
I should have started days ago actually, but my lappie has been giving me problems. So yeah.

I’m so dead, I know.

I lost RM 50 last Friday.

I’ve finally got a new (cheaper) place to stay ! Just when I was about to give up looking, I came across this ad online. It’s a single storey semi-D in Desa Pinggiran Putra. I’d be renting a room only, of course. If all goes well, I’d be moving in next weekend.
The problem now is I have to look for someone to rent the current room I am in.

I miss the boyfriend so much. We haven’t been able to have a decent phone conversation for quite some time now. I’ve always been too tired or too cranky. Sigh.

I seem to have forgotten where I put my new white coat. Ergh.

Next month I’d be in the clinical unit. I’m so very nervous because my clinical knowledge is so weak you would be wondering what I studied for the past six years. Sigh.

I wanna watch The Curious Case of Benjamin Button lah.

I am in dire need of a Girls’ Day/Night Out/In.


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Currently feeling: Dispirited
Currently listening to: Nothing

So it has begin.
It’s a sad fact that running away is not an available option.
Double sigh.

I hate that it’s affecting my social life.
I am starting to feel like curling up in my bed and detaching myself from everyone.
Daily tear-filled phone calls to the boyfriend have also started.
I despise this side of me.

This is only temporary. But it’s already feeling like forever.
I can do this.
Can I ?

I wished I was as strong as you, Mummy.


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